Christmas is coming quickly ...

WOw , where is time going to ... How can it keep flying by... christmas is in 14 days... I think everything is purchased except maybe some candy... Baking has yet to be done and candy stilll needs to be made... I would love to go to a movie on Friday night.. Its the new chipmunks movie.. no money for that as usual.. got the living room cleaned today ... made a place to put the tree... yepp still procrastinating..
Husband and daughter went to church and to the church christmas dinner.. I slept.. took some meds and slept somemore.. Really wish this stuff would go byy bye.

Getting myself up was diffincult.. sleep felt so good after two weeks of not sleeping .. now I just hope that I will sleep tongiht.

finding my way back

I think that I have been lost for a while now.. Last time I stopped in was in April.. alot of things have happened since then.. I lost a total of 43 lbs for one and since september have probably gained 20 of it back.. Have been trying to find my way back to taking care of me and each time. I fail epically... I find an excuse not to do it .. let myself believe that because my clothes still fit I am ok but the horrid truth is Im not okay. I can feel the returning fat around my neck , in my stomach, ass and legs.. i dont want this and I know that I must get the fat ass off the couch and walk.. do sit ups, ssquats , toe touches and everything else that I was doing when i was losing..

Maybe I need to post a picture on my wall of a morbid obese person much like myself!! Having gastric bypass surgery or injecting insulin because their sugar is to high.. I need to relize a visual.. after all it was only after the doctor pissed me off that I found it in me to kick my oown ass and start.. I think that Iwill start a eating blog.. .. recipes that i eat to lose weight ... something in the future to work toward.. .. also going to buy my outfit in my dream size and make it my goal to one day get into it.. gotta lose 130 more pounds.. yepp putting that in writing. after that I will see in i need to lose more...

Some how some way I am getting there !!! size 14 here I come..