long summer days, quiet summer nights. Do you ever wish that summer lasted all year? this year i would have to say heck no i think this summer has been all too hot. i sometimes try to imagine a place where the weather is perfect all year long average temp is a wonderful 75 degrees. i cant see it in my mind because i have always lived in a place with cold winter hot summers short falls and springs but its home so i will live with it.
When i get to heaven i wont have to worry about it. i wont have to be hot or cold i wont hurt , cry or any of the other things we do here on earth.

I have a long week coming up. I am in charge of my church's vbs this year. I have always helped before. I hope that everything goes well and that the children leave with a seed planted that will make them want to serve the Lord. To have one child saved would be awsome. I so want to follow what God has planned for me. I know that i continually fall short, I stand deep in the need of prayer and I am thankful for those that pray for me.

So many things seem to be building stress in my life. Bills that need paid, i know just like the rest of the world right. Wonder why the rich are so powerful and why they think it all right to look down on those that are not rich. The prices of food, rent, clothing, household supplies, gasoline, electricity, heating and cooling cost. just the very things that we use on a daily bases is getting so out of hand that more and more of us could find ourselves going with out our basic needs. Our government helping or hindering. They continue to give to the rich and take from the poor and middle class (what ever that is these days.) Poverty is expanding and virtues and disappearing. Caring for our neighbors is almost a thing of the past in this hurried society. We need to go back to the days when we helped each other and went out of our way to care for the sick and elderly.
Now we want praise and glory when we do good and don't' want to be associated with any thing bad.
where did we loose our faith in God when did this country founded as one nation under God . with liberty and justice. We need to come toGether in Prayer for our Country and we could begin to bring those things wrong with this country and well world back in to line with what God wants for us.

May the Lord Bless You and keep you in all ways. Love him and praise him in all things and pray continuely ABOUT ALL THINGS.

I have a theory that most people don't know how to deal with the truth. May be its because they have never been able to tell the truth , they in fact seem to run from the truth. Maybe i think to much about it but in the condition of our great country i sometimes wonder where we will ever again find the truth. politician feed us lies to promote themselves so they can get into offices where they then play havoc with our very lives. they say that they will make things better (untruth #1 ) then carry out making things far worse. point being the fiasco thing we call health care for all. The poor man keeps getting poorer and the rich getting richer. Children who may loose there insurance provided by parents because the companies can they work for can no longer afford to offer it to anyone except the employees of that companies. Payment for insurance have double and in some cases tripled and the cost of health care keeps going up. out of pocket deductibles keep getting bigger and paychecks keep getting smaller. It becomes a choice health care or home and food. Which do you choose and then they tell us we have no choice that we have to have insurance by a deadline date or be fined. Well if we could afford the insurance in the first place we would have. it! TRUTH HARD TO HEAR ISN'T IT

LORD I THANK YOU THAT YOU ALWAYS GIVE US THE TRUTH AND LOVE AND GRACE. '
PROVERBS 3:5 TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING

why do weekends always seem so short? better yet why do workweeks always feel so long. i like my job but i feel like i will never get caught up. i wish that weekends lasted longer. i love spending with my family and friends. i love the fellowship of our church. hearing the word of God is wonderful. todays sermon was good. prayer and music. i sometimes get so much more from the songs than the preaching.

i cant help but wonder why the cost of health care is so out rageous. today i found out that my health insuarance is taking a huge hike. so much for having any extra money to have a life with. how are we supposed to be healthy when we cant affordd to eat healthy. it makes me wonder for those who don't have jobs how they are able to live. I have a home to live in and a car to drive. i have insurance (be it ever so expensive) but the rising cost of living in this country has gone crazy. Two people working full time and still barely getting by. doesn't seem right to me.
i cant help but wonder what i am doing wrong. what have i missed. when did the solution pass me by and why cant i go back and find it.
i find myself thinking of the way life was before i was born. in the 50's when life seemed to be simpler. when we didnt' want for electronics, movies , air conditioning, computers. all the things taht we have to day that we think we cant live without. Would it not be so nice to go back, back to a time when people visited on front porches, drank lemonade and ate homemade chocolate cake. when milk and soda come in glass (recycable) bottles. when families gathered around the radio to listen and mom stayed home to be a mom. When food was cooked with love and time and not from a cardboard box. when a treat was going to the general store and having an ice cold coke at the drug store. A time when the barber was your friend and your neighbor helped you fix the roof of your barn and didn't expect a paycheck for it, because he knew you would help him in return. Back to a time when kids walked to school and did chores before running out to play with neighborhood kids til mom called them in at dinner. To a simpler time when families read the Bible and tried to live by its words. When they went to church together and invited the preacher and his family to sunday dinner Oh the simpler times that have passed us by for a hussle and bussle of life in the super fast lane.

Lord i know that you wont ever give us more than we can handle. Sometimes i don't think i can handle much more but thank you Lord that you help me through daily. I love you lord.

I wonder why it is that when the rest of the world seems to have no problems I feel like I am being bombarded by trouble. It seems like every where i turn in my family some one is sick.
The car is breaking down, the house needs repair , shower wont turn on and the sink wont quit dripping. Far from far but it is the life that i have and as far as i can tell the life that I will have.

I am so thankful that I have a Lord who cares for me. Sometimes when I feel alone I smile because I have been saved. I never have to face death hell or the grave. I know that when I die I will go home To my real home > My mansion in the Sky. I will reunite with my mom and all my loved ones that have got there before me. I wont have to worry anymore. and I wont ever hurt again!

Lord God I am so thankful that you love me. This is my story and you are the best part of it all.

i am starting this blog because i need a place to write my thoughts. Its been almost 14 months since my mom died and sometimes I feel like I will go crazy. I feel like the world is laughing at me because I still cry. Something good happens to me and I still find myself wanting to run and call Mom to tell her. I have yet to actually dial the number to her house for that however I have come close a couple of times. My husband, daughter and I live next door to her house. I call it her house when actually my Dad and older brother is still there. I have lived on this farm my entire life. I see her in every room and all over the yard. Sometimes when i listen closely i can almost hear her talking. I don't want to burden my family with my thoughts of lonliness but I am lonely. I would come home from work everyday and check on Mom and Dad. I still check on Dad but i sit there looking at the chair Mom sat in and think to myself why. Cancer is such an ugly disease. Noone should have to die that way.
today i spent 9 hours at the hospital while one of my sister had surgery. The surgery was to remove an ovarian tumor. Cancer yet again has stricken one of my family.
I trust God to take care of my family. Proverbs 3:5&6 says
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all ways acknowledge him and he will make your pathways straight.

Thank ful for that. i love the Lord and could not get through a day with out him.